What the BLEEP was I thinking?
As I stepped up to edge all I could think, was what was I thinking, why did I think this was a good idea? Why? Why? Why? I may have been dropping F bombs like a trucker which isn’t my natural state of being. I was the same girl who once refused to get on the child size roller coaster with my eager 5-year-old son Braedon at the local fair. I was the same girl who once asked to be let off a ride at an amusement park on vacation in Ontario before it even started. I was also the same girl who was terrified of heights, didn’t get on rides and didn’t take part in extreme adventures!
That’s me, 142 off the ground on the edge!
Now I was standing backwards with my heals slightly over the edge of the roof of the Hilton in Saint John, NB; 13 stories and 142 ft from the ground. Over the Edge is a fundraiser for a local non-profit in my community. If you raise $1000.00 than you get to repel over the edge; although I am betting many would pay $1000.00 to not to go over!
As many of you who follow me on social media know, in 2018 I lost my son Braedon just 4 months after his 18th birthday. I watched him deal with his second life-threatening illness with so much grace and courage that I decided I wanted to start living more like him. I want to be brave with my life. I want to do hard things and scary things. I want to step into that bravery more and more every day; I want to truly live. To keep myself inspired as many of you also know I started the #100bravethings Project. After hearing about Over the Edge, I knew I had to do it; it was so far out of my comfort zone!
#100bravethings Project #12
Stepping up onto that ledge 142 ft from the ground instantly filled me with so much regret. I didn’t think I was going to be able to do it! It was so scary. It just doesn’t feel natural to lean backwards that high off the ground! It took a bit to convince myself, but I finally lowered myself down so my legs were straight out in front of me. After that I slowly but surely, lowered myself to the ground and I have to say when my feet were planted firmly back on the ground, I felt amazing! I felt like to a total bad-ass. I immediately had a surge of energy run through my body and I instantly felt stronger, more confident and braver than ever before.
Braedon looked fear in the face many times over the years; I think that’s why he was so brave. I know as parents we are supposed to teach our children and I absolutely worked hard to teach him many lessons during his life. I can’t help but think of all he taught me though, he certainly taught me how to be brave. Even in his passing he is still teaching me and guiding me every day. He is my true inspiration in starting this project and now once again I am better for having known him. I am reminded that we are capable of things we never dreamed we could do. I am reminded that we can feel afraid and it doesn’t have to stop us. We can embrace our fears, step into our brave and the live out our best lives!
What are you afraid of?
What’s holding you back?
“You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face.” Eleanor Roosevelt
- Accepted this Challenge
- Went to a hot tub party
- Admitted my biggest goals (writing and speaking) to the whole internet
- Asking for help
- Applying for Ted X (I didn’t get picked…this year)
- Held a lizard on my head
- Launched my first inspirational product
- Started a side business to help fund my dreams
- Started sharing videos on Insta-stories
- Started doing live videos
- Gave my 10th blood donation
- Over the Edge
How can you get involved?
- Reach out with an idea or suggestion of something you think I should do.
- Reach out to have me do something with you that you may have previously been afraid to do.
- Become a sponsor of my #100Bravethings Project. Various commitment levels available. Great way to promote your business and help this mom step into her brave!