I Wanted to Quit Before it Started!
It was downpouring when I pulled into the driveway and parked my truck. I sat there for 15 minutes while contemplating driving away and bailing on the commitment I made to myself. I wanted to drive away; I really really wanted to drive away. I was desperately searching for a justifiable excuse to quit before I even got started but luckily I couldn’t think of anything reasonable. .
Everything inside of me was screaming:
- This is going to be too hard.
- You cannot do this.
- You will make a fool of yourself.
- Step on the gas and get the heck out of here.
- Stay comfortable.
- Just do it some other time.
- Sign up next year.
I Didn’t Listen!
It was hard but I didn’t listen to that voice who was trying to hold me back, trying to protect me, keep me safe and perfectly comfy and cozy. Right up until I forced myself out of my truck I was telling myself I couldn’t do it but I #embracedmybrave and stayed. I ran. I peddled and I ran again. Sweat poured off my body, a stitch stabbed me repeatedly in my left side as I very slowly kept putting one foot in front of the other. On the last leg I was really huffing and puffing but I could see the turn around point ahead. My muscles hurt. I was uncomfortable but there I was doing the thing I told myself I couldn’t.
It Sucked…Until it Didn’t!
I was tired and wet. It sucked; it totally sucked every step of the way until suddenly it didn’t. Seriously, as I got closer and closer to finishing it sucked less and less and the moment I crossed the finish line I quickly remembered why I do these things. Why I push myself and force myself to stretch and grow and get uncomfortable. It feels amazing. I’m writing this three days later and it still feels amazing. I’m fired up. I’m searching and trying to find my next challenge. My confidence is soaring and I feel like nothing can hold me back and you guys that is an amazing freaking feeling. I want more of it. I want that feeling all day everyday. Imagine what you could do with more of those feelings. Of feeling like nothing can hold you back. Feeling like you can take on the world. That’s what challenging yourself can feel like. Pretty amazing don’t you think?
We Create Limitations on Ourselves!
The truth is we are all capable of so much more than we give ourselves
credit for. We are stronger and braver than we’ve ever imagined and our potential is boundless. You guys I’m significantly overweight. I have plantar fasciitis, plus one plate & 6 screws in the same ankle but I showed up and did it anyway; a whole duathlon. So often in life we are the thing that holds us back. We put limitations on ourselves. We say things like:
- That’s too hard.
- I can’t do that.
- I don’t have what it takes.
- I’m not special enough.
- I’m not strong enough.
- I’m not good enough.
- I’m not ____________ enough. (you fill in the blank!)
Would more training have helped? Of course it would have but sometimes you just need to show up where you’re at with what you have and that’s what I did. It wasn’t pretty and I wasn’t even close to fast. In fact I was D.F.L. (dead freaking last) but guess what? I was faster than the woman I used to be. The one who was sitting on the sidelines of her own life year and year. The one who let her ego win because she was terrified of finishing last.
One of the things that has really come into perspective over the last two years is that life is fleeting. Time slips away so quickly we don’t even know where it goes but soon enough we wake up and are saddened by the fact that we didn’t move forward. We didn’t do the things, we didn’t chase the big dreams or even the little ones. We didn’t get up and take action. We didn’t flex our bravey muscles.
You guys I don’t want that for you. I don’t want you sitting on the sidelines too afraid to even admit what you want for your life. Too afraid of failing or finishing last. I want you to be BRAVE with your one and only life. Go do the thing friend. What challenge do you want to tackle? Let me know below!
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