#100bravethingsproject #26 Say Cheese~ 40th Birthday Photoshoot! I avoided the camera for years. It made me anxious, annoyed even when people i.e. friends insisted on capturing a photo every time we got together. We don’t need another photo I thought, ashamed and embarrassed. I had gained weight, a lot of weight; I didn’t want to … Continue reading I Won’t Hide my Body, I won’t Apologize!
You’re FINE, they tell us. Stop crying. You’re a big girl aren’t you? Big girls don’t cry; do they? You're Fine As little girls, we're told this all the time. Wipe those tears my dear. You’re fine. Even when we’re clearly in distress, crying & upset we’re told to cut it out. Stop crying. Everyone … Continue reading Stop Crying They Say, You’re Fine!
Do you have kids the salesman asked? No, I awkwardly reply. It just feels wrong to burden a stranger in this way. To bring him into my world and leave him lost for words to say; feeling guilty over something he had no part of and can do nothing about. No. It doesn’t seem right … Continue reading Still a Mom: For all the Momma’s who are Grieving this Mother’s Day
My Struggle is Real I’ve been quiet this last week. I’ve struggled to focus and struggled to show up here and in my life. This has become a part of my life now more so than ever before. Suddenly it’s like everything boils over at once and I can’t control it. The grief, PTSD and … Continue reading Are you Willing to give Yourself Grace?
So your probably wondering why I'm writing an entire blog post about my shoes? These shoes actually belonged to my son Braedon. He got these from me on what became his very last Christmas here on Earth. They're actually too big but I wear them anyway because they have special meaning and power. Where do … Continue reading My Magical Shoes…say what?!
Losing Braedon was a complete shock to me and to everyone who loved him. What many people don’t realize is that Braedon before he passed he was a living miracle. In 2007, Braedon experienced his first life-threatening illness and doctors didn’t think he’d make it. He had a rare blood infection that caused him to … Continue reading 6 Ways I take care of my Mental Health & Where you can find Support!
Where do I even begin? You were home to some of the best and some of the worst moments and days of my life. You wrapped up a twisted wild ride and delivered it over a decade. I experienced more love and joy than I ever dreamed possible. I became a doer, a seeker and … Continue reading To the Decade that Tried to Break Me!
Confessions & Ramblings from a Bereaved Mom #100bravethings Project #20 Well here I am before you ready to peel back another layer, take off another piece of armour and invite you into some of my innermost personal thoughts and feelings through loss. Maybe you're thinking what does that have to do with bravery but I … Continue reading Confessions from a Bereaved Mom
Sometimes in life we are faced with things we think we have no control over and sometimes in life we are faced with things that we actually have absolutely no control over. For me losing Braedon was one of those things. I prayed, I asked others to pray and I pleaded with God for a … Continue reading Five Ways to own Your Power!
My eyes were closed, my lips trembled and a few tears overflowed dispite my best effort to keep them abayas. I focused on my breath. Deep breaths. Slow breaths. Inhaling through my nose, filling my chest and releasing through my mouth as I tried to keep it together. Although I was sitting uncomfortably in hard … Continue reading Changed by Loss