The big 4~0 has arrived you guys and I couldn’t be more grateful. Grateful you say, with a question mark. Grateful for growing older, you might be repeating in a confused tone? Wait, what? When people complain about growing older it makes me feel like the sound of sharp jagged nails scraping down a chalkboard. … Continue reading Celebrating 40, Growing Older is a Privilege Not Everyone Gets !
I know it's shocking isn't it? I have been every size from a teeny- tiny compact, acceptable and expected size 3 to my current and much larger, often unacceptable, plus size body and I can assure you that confidence doesn’t come from your pant size. I walk onto stages to speak, to share, to connect, … Continue reading Confidence Can’t be Found in Your Pant Size!
To My Dearest Son Braedon, It’s been two years, 24 months, 730 agonizing days, 17,520 hours, two birthdays, two Christmases, two Easter's, two Mother’s Days, two Father's Days since you were called home. It feels like a thousand years since I was able to look into your sparkling eyes, see a room light up with … Continue reading 17,520 hours Since we Had to Say Goodbye
Do you have kids the salesman asked? No, I awkwardly reply. It just feels wrong to burden a stranger in this way. To bring him into my world and leave him lost for words to say; feeling guilty over something he had no part of and can do nothing about. No. It doesn’t seem right … Continue reading Still a Mom: For all the Momma’s who are Grieving this Mother’s Day
My Struggle is Real I’ve been quiet this last week. I’ve struggled to focus and struggled to show up here and in my life. This has become a part of my life now more so than ever before. Suddenly it’s like everything boils over at once and I can’t control it. The grief, PTSD and … Continue reading Are you Willing to give Yourself Grace?
I'm Cured! Butting out for Good Earlier this month I celebrated my 8 year smoke-i-versary! Eight freaking years since I finally made one of the toughest habits to kick a thing of the past. After many failed attempts over almost 2 decades of smoking I quit smoking for good. Not only did I quit, I … Continue reading 39,944 Cigarettes Not Smoked: How I finally Cured Myself after almost 2 Decades!
I almost forgot to share this amazing news with all of you! Earlier this month I had the honor of receiving The Ladies of Influence, Lady of Resilience Award. Life has been so crazy ever since that I haven't had the chance to share this with all of you and to express my sincere gratitude … Continue reading A Dedication to my Angel Son
So your probably wondering why I'm writing an entire blog post about my shoes? These shoes actually belonged to my son Braedon. He got these from me on what became his very last Christmas here on Earth. They're actually too big but I wear them anyway because they have special meaning and power. Where do … Continue reading My Magical Shoes…say what?!
Our time is LIMITED. It's easy for most people to forget that we don't get to live forever. We nonchalantly tell ourselves tomorrow, when the time is right, when the kids are older, when life is less crazy or even worse. We tell ourselves SOMEDAY! Waking up to a world without Braedon reminds me every … Continue reading 5 Steps to Making your Dreams a Reality!
My eyes were closed, my lips trembled and a few tears overflowed dispite my best effort to keep them abayas. I focused on my breath. Deep breaths. Slow breaths. Inhaling through my nose, filling my chest and releasing through my mouth as I tried to keep it together. Although I was sitting uncomfortably in hard … Continue reading Changed by Loss