The big 4~0 has arrived you guys and I couldn’t be more grateful. Grateful you say, with a question mark. Grateful for growing older, you might be repeating in a confused tone? Wait, what? When people complain about growing older it makes me feel like the sound of sharp jagged nails scraping down a chalkboard. … Continue reading Celebrating 40, Growing Older is a Privilege Not Everyone Gets !
To My Dearest Son Braedon, It’s been two years, 24 months, 730 agonizing days, 17,520 hours, two birthdays, two Christmases, two Easter's, two Mother’s Days, two Father's Days since you were called home. It feels like a thousand years since I was able to look into your sparkling eyes, see a room light up with … Continue reading 17,520 hours Since we Had to Say Goodbye
My Struggle is Real I’ve been quiet this last week. I’ve struggled to focus and struggled to show up here and in my life. This has become a part of my life now more so than ever before. Suddenly it’s like everything boils over at once and I can’t control it. The grief, PTSD and … Continue reading Are you Willing to give Yourself Grace?
I'm Cured! Butting out for Good Earlier this month I celebrated my 8 year smoke-i-versary! Eight freaking years since I finally made one of the toughest habits to kick a thing of the past. After many failed attempts over almost 2 decades of smoking I quit smoking for good. Not only did I quit, I … Continue reading 39,944 Cigarettes Not Smoked: How I finally Cured Myself after almost 2 Decades!
I almost forgot to share this amazing news with all of you! Earlier this month I had the honor of receiving The Ladies of Influence, Lady of Resilience Award. Life has been so crazy ever since that I haven't had the chance to share this with all of you and to express my sincere gratitude … Continue reading A Dedication to my Angel Son
Living in the Moment and Mindfulness So what does it mean to live more in the moment and why the heck does it matter? Living in the moment can also be referred to as mindfulness. It’s about being intentionally present in what you are doing. In today's fast paced world where we’re bombarded with messages … Continue reading Five ways to Live more in the Moment!
Get More out of Life Be Present. So many of us are struggling with this one. We’re living in a fast paced world and we barely have time to slow down and focus on the present moment. We’re so connected it’s hard to focus on what’s happening right now and be completely present in what … Continue reading 5 Ways to get More out of Life!
Our time is LIMITED. It's easy for most people to forget that we don't get to live forever. We nonchalantly tell ourselves tomorrow, when the time is right, when the kids are older, when life is less crazy or even worse. We tell ourselves SOMEDAY! Waking up to a world without Braedon reminds me every … Continue reading 5 Steps to Making your Dreams a Reality!
My eyes were closed, my lips trembled and a few tears overflowed dispite my best effort to keep them abayas. I focused on my breath. Deep breaths. Slow breaths. Inhaling through my nose, filling my chest and releasing through my mouth as I tried to keep it together. Although I was sitting uncomfortably in hard … Continue reading Changed by Loss
Even Though I'm Living Every Parents Worst Nightmare Even though I had to live through another holiday without Braedon. Even though I had an amazing weekend with my family but still felt unbelievable lonely. Even though I smiled while quietly aching under the surface. Even though I woke today feeling incredibly empty, I also felt … Continue reading Creating Light in Darkness: Gratitude Through Loss
